The Case of the Christmas Cookies!! :(

Oh where do I begin with this one. I'll start by saying, I successfully completed the whole30 cheat free while feeling (and looking) great! I said to myself that I would keep the momentum going for as long as I could even when I was home for Christmas. My one cup of eggnog hit the spot and I was done with it. However, unfortunately, it didn't end there. I got sucked in by the sugar storm and for four days my diet went from really good and really clean to really bad and almost entirely filled with sugar. I had cookies, caramel popcorn, cranberry spice bread, trifle, ice cream, chocolate milk...ugh, I'm so disappointed in myself. It was tough because I was surrounded by this. I was starving on Friday and rather take the time to make a healthy lunch, or snack on fruit until we had dinner, I ate handfuls and handfuls of caramel popcorn and M&Ms. It was there, it was good, and I couldn't stop eating it. What was I thinking? I went from 0-60 in a matter of minutes. Needless to say, I was paying...er....I am paying for the damage I had done. I'm tired, I've had a headache since Friday, I look squishy, and I haven't weighed myself but I'm pretty sure I put on about 6 or 7lbs. Lbs that I had worked so hard at keeping off. Disappointment doesn't even to begin to describe how I feel. I almost didn't want to show up to work today because I was scared people would see me and think "wow, Becca put some holiday weight on!". I'm not trying to jump on the new years resolution wagon, but I am trying to get back to where I was before I went home for Christmas. No sugar is where I'm starting. I have a few non-whole30 items in my fridge that I can't afford to waste (Coconut Chocolate Milk, coconut creamer....). But once those items are gone, it's back to the whole30 for me. I am also going to try a new shake/meal replacement for a while just to try and help drop off this sugar weight. I was feeling so good, and looking really good, and I was so proud of myself for not cheating. We all make mistakes and we all fall down, but I will use this blog post to remind me to get back up and start over again. Beginnings are always hard, but without them we wouldn't get anywhere!